new year's eve, we have good old fishes to stef's place for steamboat ! but i hate wenling and kenneth for being absent. bird, denise, emily, edward, cherilyn, stef, and stef's mother for being one of the greatest host around. i do not appreciate stef's brother's presence though. very insolent, very irritating. i ate approximately 15 meatballs and i think other than char siew paus, the other secret obsession i have, are for meatballs. yumz ! (and the girl i've adored for years, uncannily now looks like a meatball too, with all that weight she put on. hahaha.) bird was the funniest through. and he's the only survivor among us. we gave up monopoly at 3am, exhausted from all the cussing, swearing, screaming from exhilaration from the many rounds of in-between games, blackjack and whadelseotherthanlosingmoney. very bad for me to lose 20odd dollars on the first day of '07 ! tsk.

denise why your face like that.

stef's mother in the middle

(got more photos. blogger got problem. i got no patience.)

this brings me to the first activity i did for '06. i played bowling at ecp with wenling, shaun and kenneth right after countdown. and i lost. bloody hell; look at my remaining 355 days of '06. as fked up as the bowling game.

new year resolutions whaddaya have ? i have none. they never work anyway. initially, i promised peiru and stef to quit my emo habits. but i came home this morning at 4.10am and realised that i did too much missing of her on the way home in bird's car. after washing up, i left class95 in my room on through the night, feeling all forlorn of comfort. thus i tried seeking them comfort again by having the songs played on the radio, like how she usually did when i did stayovers in the past. first 4 hours of '07, and i already broke my only existing resolution. you tell me how. anyway peiru, i was so tired i didn't have much energy left to emo and so i fell asleep almost immediately after. like that still counted or not ?

very bad.

3ish today, i met wenling at parkway starbucks for tea. and then bumped into michelle whom sat with us for 10mins giving us the latest news in fish and co ! two shocking news about one particular (hot!)person which left me almost dumbfounded. this world, is very twisted. full of twisted people with twisted mindsets ! and weird people with weird tastes ! :( but anyway, guess what else did michelle said ?

" eh emily, you got eyebags ! why you look so old these days ? very different from last time you know ! you look at your eyebags ! come, i take a photo of you and let you see yourself ! last time you don't have eyebags one ! if you don't believe, go look at the old photos all of us took at genting 3 years ago ! aiyooooo."

oh damn it. very good to kickstart '07. there, i stood standing helpless, watching my youthful days slip through my fingers.

now i'm just a bag of lard with eyebags. i got extremely conscious about it and really went through those old photos we took at genting 3 years ago. indeed there were no eyebags ! indeed i look damn old today ! sadness upon sadness. guess what's another thing i realised ? i wasn't even fat 3 years ago. but i could remember vividly complaining to everybody that i was fat then. now as i look at 17 year old emily, she wasn't even fat. why the hell did i said i was fat ? and most of all, why did all of you, my friends, nodded in agreement with me ? want to how sabo.

i never learnt the real meaning of " fat " until i look myself in the mirror today.

and whatever. i am so sick of my hair. this is the longest it can ever get. wait till this sunday the big day is over. i will give it a butch short cut. and be boy. and not care about being fat.

okay whatever. too grumpy to continue. happy new year y'alls !