e is f___ed.


hey there delilah
what's it like in new york city
i'm a thousand miles away
but girl tonight you look so pretty
yes you do
time square can't shine as bright as you
i swear its true.


i do not fancy christmas. not when i am alone without a girlfriend. thankfully i will be away from singapore for christmas this year. away from the disgusting crowd. at the last minute of christmas eve, i will sit down with stefanie(but i will not talk to her. my rule is no talking during emo time.) and play plain white ts' on miss leah( miss leah is my ipod.) and stare at stars if there are any. after that, i will turn my head and tell stef, i am so f_____ , or, stef i feel so f_____ and end my sentence with a big HOW or WHY like i always do. i wouldn't mind if i cry because there will only be stef and i. no parties no crowd no face to talk about. i have an obsession with emotions and i am not afraid to feel the biggest of them.

how, why.

nobody. nobody can ever give me the answers to my questions because the problem lies in me which i know.

anyway. time to cut hair.