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When she goes I sit among the cuttings and papers and they feel like old wrappings, the crumpled and torn tissue round precious things so long ago put by that the reasons that made them worth keeping have disintegrated silently inside their coverings. Treasures shrink with time, as do the objects of all youthful ecstacsiesl; unwrapped and recalled later, they are mystifyingly undeserving of preservation.

i am back to using my good old panasonic pink phone. it felt weird in my hands. i remember holding it like it was made to fit my hands. last night when i held it, i just felt weird. i went through all 500 messages i have in that phone, and it left me in reminisce for quite awhile. nothing kills better than a dose of reminisence. and its best accomplice would be the chilly weather and the saddest love songs on the player. i went through the photos i took using that phone too. there were mainly vanessa and i, jason and stefanie. all these were, merely 8 months ago.

stef said,

" emo-ing about v just had to happen again. well, things bound to change.even the same place will look different one year later. "

and then i conclude. i hate changes. and i'm afraid to look back cus mostly, things were not like how i thought they were. so, i'm not going to look back so much anymore.

its been pouring so hard and much it scares me. i refuse to go out, and here i am talking to jac online. we both talk about " staying together with our girlfriend like married like that " when we're slightly older. (according to her, " can fuck everywhere in the house. " hahaha.) i thought it would be a hell load of sweetness overload just staying with my porcelain faced girlfriend. i would not mind if she eats my food, and i want to sit on steps while she takes a bath and look at her and our photos together and wished i'd know her forever and hear her voice on my ear and feel her skin on my skin. spend every single wakening moment together and tell her about the tree angel enchated forest girl who flew across the ocean because she loves her and wonder why she says i'm spouting nonsense.

and i added about, not necessary for me having to be attached now because if it happens, then okay very good congratulations emily. but if not, then too bad (and at the same time, save up my tears too.)

so its been pouring so hard, i will spend the rest of tuesday rearranging my itunes, cleanse my soul in literary quotes, finding comfort in good music and slumber.

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yummay days !

oh days had been absolutely yummay after friday ! i think i've been influenced by kerly big time because yummy now is yummay, ya now is yar, ! now is !!, hey now is heyhey and much moreee.

all the midsem testpapers i had were yummay ! i ate all the questions up and it was tres filling ! guess what i'm going to shit out ? all the As and Bs !! hohoho i'm so gonna do well ! p.s : yes so what if i have no shame. i really studied damn hard, and i deserve all those credits. come blanket me with your praises !

saturday was from gashaus to HOMEclub to loof with stefanie the xiao long pau. from thingalings to all things yummay ! oh yummay yummay ! i love flea markets ! and i bought this cool little book of warped, twisted few liners of dark humour. and i had such a good time laughing over them stories !

and sunday, was charlotte's web with kenneth. oh sorry kenneth that it was way boring for you. but i absolutely love it ! i feel drowned when i'm town. all i see were heads bobbing around the congested passageway. and rain fall from concrete color sky ! slippery floor with sole-less slippers makes a terrified emily ! oh not so yummay.

today, i got my ipod ! oh happiness. now i gotta think of a name. and i've been very busy rearranging all the songs nicely in my itunes. i even got an ipod dock speaker !! yummiest of all ! :) by the way friends, if you all are interested in an ipod, get it from me okay. i am (un)officially the organiser of an ipod spreeee !

richard says he wants to give me an indian lesbian for christmas. i think he has no respect ! i told him, fine, make chen ting an indian and i will gladly be with an indian lesbian. but then if chen ting turns indian, chen wei automatically turns indian too since they are all from the chen family. in this case, both richard and i will have indian girlfriends ! oh yayness !
and richard is tres lousy becus he only tried friedrice and soup from chen mama before ! i've tried that since 4 years ago when he was an LCP in rank. hahahaha. oh what a fun brother in law i have. we are going to the chen family side and help them shift house next weeeeeek !

look how yummay my days are !
:) :D =) =D