at 3.56am again, i woke up with a jolt last night(what seemed like a myoclonic jerk). this is getting very scary and i am disturbed by the fact that i dreamt about myself jumping from heights again. this time, i see her face in the picture and i woke up feeling ucomfortable. not like this is the first time i've dreamt about her relating to me and then bad stuff happens. but i don't understand why does it recur with the same faces and regarding the same damn old issue. and why do i always wake up in the middle of the night at the same time.

the dream dictionary suggested :

To dream that you commit suicide, denotes that conditions in your life is so frustrating that you are no longer willing to cope with a situation or relationship in the same way as you did in the past. Alternatively, you may be unable to overcome feelings of guilt and thus turning the aggression on yourself. On a more positive note, it may suggest that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself or character that your have been carrying around.

To dream that you fall and are frightened, indicates a lack of control, insecurity, and/or lack of support in your waking life. You may be experiencing some major struggle and/or overwhelming problem. It may denote that you have failed to achieve a goal that you have set forth for yourself.

so i'm actually secretly emotionally fucked. i can't choose to be in denial anymore because my dreams doesn't spare me. i can't even sleep in peace now, help.