last night i had a very good(satisfying) dream. i was perpetually smiling throughout. i could feel it. no prizes for guessing who i dreamt of because everybody sure know who one. i was really happy, i could feel that its morning already but i refused to get up...until at 9ish, being the light sleeper as i am, my phone vibrated

" hello emily ah ! want watch movie tonight or not !"

very anti-climax can ! why you always do the wrong thing at the wrong time stefanie ! UGH.

----------------EDIT 3.13pm

to all my friends who cared/or prolly just looking for another hot topic to talk about,

i know vanessa is back in singapore. i still do care for her. but i don't want to be bothered with any issues concerning her anymore. you all know how much i've been holding back. for the reason being, she was the biggest disappointment ever. you all know what kind of a relationshit i was in with her. no not just her. but her ex girlfriend from hell who didn't give me peace. i have been receiving messages that says " hey emily is vanessa back in singapore ? i think i saw her at ___________(insert appropriate place). " yes to satisfy all your curiosities, she is back in singapore. i don't want to know if she grew feminine/taller/looking still the same/prettier/hair alot longer/very pretty with her significant dimples whatsoever. i don't care if she was at wisma/parkway or the motorcar exhibition. all of you can continue reading about her life in her blog. but please know that it took me much effort to finally stop visiting her blog and learning much about her life. all for one sole purpose- to move on with life. the towel was thrown in long time ago. loved and lost, and finally moved on. i hope all of you can help me this way.


and know that, i don't need her faith to keep me alive and i can be happy on my own too.