and if we don't step up, we'll lose our groove


last week, over the weekends, till this afternoon, what i felt like was a post-it note almost losing its adhesive ability. oh what shame. i skipped school on friday because " fail driving test.. no mood to go to school. " i sat at gardens coffeebean last night with wenling, sipping on chamomile tea thinking i'd figure out everything there. but no, it didn't work cus i came home with a third attack. everything just returned to a square one. i skipped morning lesson today because " sorry, too emo for school." and i spent the rest of the morning hours burying my head in my pillow thinking what other fuckups my life has got in store for me.

my heart rule my mind. i am very ashamed of the very fact that i always allow my emotions to take control of situations. i thought about it in the bus today and i know it is almost impossible for me to achieve emo nirvana this lifetime. if i can have a supernatural power of sort, i would want to achieve emo nirvana. nothing would trigger my emotions. i'll be very stagnent and remain very sane. things started looking up (in the late afternoon), i figured out solutions and consolations to all 3 attacks and now everything's more or less right with the world.

the only remaining thought in my mind now as i sink my teeth into a happy cupcake; puppy next weekend or puppy not ?

:)