-Edit 9pm

conversation of the night, japan vs sgp :

" there's a hot butch walking down the beach of Okinawa today. think, cute tanned jap boy. that's her. what herstory event do you want to talk about, emily. what, what stupid chinese show butch/andro you were so crazy about the other time. she is very very eeeyer k ? japan is fucking awesome. they have got 10 million zillion vintage stores okay i am exaggarating, but seriously, if you are deprieved and withering like what you told me, please join me in japan NOW. we can go to the lesbian clubs i bet they are better than madmonks. i was damn shocked when i saw the butch today. i thought ohwhatcuteboy and until she said welcome and i was like its a girl ! wow you know ! that butch looks better than me how can ! "

she said it all in one breath, leaving me with no chance to say anything at all. oh yes, i did.

"WHAT LA, WHAT CHINESE SHOW BUTCH. HER NAME IS GERALDINE AND SHE IS NOT EEYER THANK YOU. "

i still get very defensive when it comes to geraldine see.

and...i was thinking.. what's happening to me ? i used to hate girls from st anthonys so much. no hard feelings, all sacians. but i really remember rolling my eyeballs at almost every single sacian on the street(yes, i was childish i admit.) but whichever girlfriend of an exgirlfriend can stand whiney 15,16 years old wannabe lesbians taking turns falling in love with her girlfriend ? save your " i-am-downstairs-your-place- can -i sleep-over- at- your- house- tonight- because- i am- drunk " kind of excuse. thank you but no, too much cheese. why don't you just be good and study hard for o levels, go to college/poly, see guys(finally) and then get your identity right. turn straight, daym. and point proven, the familiar friendly faces(understatement) you used to see at friday nights at madmonks are all now clinging on to boys at zouk like elephant glue.

this was how i used to really not like sacians. oh and prolly i was miss teenage angsty too.

but now i have a sgp vs japan conversation. she was a sacian. and i still have !
jill was a sacian, wenling was a sacian, stefanie was a sacian, amy was a sacian, denise was a sacian. and i have all of them revolving around my life now. hahaha. on a seperate note. julian hee handsome meh ? why everybody want to rush home for the 9pm show just for him ? like yesterday, stef couldn't make it home in time for the 9pm show and we had to sit at KTS(our favourite kopitiam at Marine Parade ) and watch tv which is suspended from the ceiling. watching the veryhandsomemeh julian hee. well okay, thats not me for sure. i was restless like a monkey. *taps stef. " hello stef, i am very bored. can you please stop watching and talk to me. please ? whey why aren't you listening. no you're not listening to me !? okay fine, what was the first thing i said ? WRONG ! *pouts " . hmm speaking of which, i've been lacking of eyefeast lately. when was the last time i saw a brand new fresh hot face ? that hot andro i bumped into thrice(!) thricesofatedtobethrice at parkway two sundays ago.

two sundays ago...

i am seriously withering already.


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stefanie and i went for dinner at parkway today. i love parkway because each time i am there, i feel very taken care of ; it must be due to my faithful days at fish and co. after dinner, i decided to cut my hair. okay, i just trimmed my bangs. no, chop is the word. now i have straight fringes and i look very much like a melonhead. i wanted to do something fun, but i think running into a a wall would be more fun now. stefanie couldn't stop laughing, i said " want to laugh just laugh can. don't try so hard to control. i can't help but laugh too. i look like i am intellectually retarded. " and she burst out laughing. i couldn't help but laugh when the hairdresser was fixing those fringes. why, hello straightfringes ! now i look like a down syndrome bitch. stef pointed to some sexy lingerie and said " emily, even if you wear that, i doubt anyone will get turned on now. " you know, it looks all quirky but not too nice. when i need a good laugh, i just have to look into the mirror. and we spent the whole night laughing at crap of such nature. and we came home with many photographs in hand. and there are all mighty contorted dot com styles but i am not posting any because i really look too much like a tranny. but still i am not going to disown it. my hair.

i was tres pretty last week, really!

i really love fish and co's taglines. tease your tastebuds oh so raunchaye.

and i really love bus 76 bus rides because everything just sinks in and i mostly gravitate towards the wave of nostalgia of blessed and happy days with my favourite songs plugged in.

no poignancy, merely indifference.

okay time to hit the sack ! goodnight world.

♥

on a seperate note. my red bag smells of my exgirlfriend today.