When I see my friends happy with their other half, I feel happy too. Like a week ago, Charmaine stole my phone number from Kang Wei's phone, dropped me a text about his surprise birthday party, stole my email address from Kang Wei's MSN contacts and added me to her list so as to share her ideas for the birthday party. She sounded almost excitedly happy telling me her plans for the day.

So what Charmaine did was to organise a poolside party for my best friend in Temasek Poly. She took the effort to inform all his friends, arrange for very good catered food, flowers and balloons to be decorated at the entire poolside, gathered all his photographs to come up with a slideshow, hired a professional photographer, ordered his birthday cake, and the nitty gritty details go on. The celebration itself costs her $3500, and Maine also specially imported PlayStation 3 from Japan which costs her another $900. " WAH THIS IS SIAONESS ! ", I exclaimed. " No, this is love. I want to do my best for him. ", Maine replied.

I felt proud for Kang Wei. And I felt proud of Maine too for giving such a convincing answer.

When I reach the place today, I cannot help but gaze in awe. Happily excited I am ! " HUH. I ALSO WANT LIKE THAT ! ", I told the rest of my classmates. I can dream on, really. So all of us stood around the poolside for 2 hours while waiting for the birthday boy. You see, he wasn't aware of this celebration at all, so we had to wait for Maine's cue. 1 minute before they arrived, all of his friends gathered at the enterance ready to pop the party popper anytime.

You see, it is people like Maine who made me realised that I deserve better. Who I really want is a girl who feels that I deserve the best from her. But for now,


Emily : I want to buy a dog. Next month !

EeSiew : Why ?

Emily : I need a living thing to be devoted to me. And since humans been failing me, I'll let an animal do the job.

EeSiew : Did anything happened ? You sound damn hurt and traumatised.

Emily : Yes ! They left me damn traumatised !! And I'm sick of what's been happening these years. You should know.

For now, I'll only settle for the girl who'd queue and buy me a donut to make me happy because she feels that I deserve the best. I will (try) not long for the girl who look as yummy as a donut but stack up the hurt by failing me. I'll bear in mind, and I'll keep safe. Humans fail you, most of the time.