2 things to talk about today.

One, after work today, Stefanie and her mother and her brother came down and then we did groceries shoppping before heading back to her place for Idols finale. WHOA I LIKE JONATHAN LEONG CAN. OTHER THAN EDISON CHEN, HE IS THE ONLY ONE WHO CAN MAKE ME SWOON. SO SEXY, LISTEN TO HIS VOICE, LOOK AT HIS CROTCH. He better win ! 3 of us had a bloody good time swooning together. Wenling, I am disappointed in you. Because you don't even want to spend time with me at Gardens to catch the finals together. Not now, not anymore. Whatever happened now ? You have your new circle of friends , I am glad for you. It is okay. I will go ahead without you but I hope you never forget me.

JONATHAN, IF YOU SEE THIS, I WANNA WASTE TIME CHASING CARS WITH YOU. ( Hahahaha I didn't say that. )

What happens when your crush just want to talk boys to you all day long ? What happens when she has got the fetish for guys in trunks (DON'T PISSED ME OFF LIKE THAT, PLEASE. ) What happens when you see her 4 out of 7 days at work, 8 hours per day yet not being able to take any steps forward ? What happens when she messages and ask you random things like " Hey Emily, what did you had for dinner ? " or " How was driving today ? What ya doing now ? " This is fucking misleading, you make me feel loved and cared by you. What happens when even after work, she calls you up (YAY ! ) and say " Emily... I found out already... my ex boyfriend is really attached.How.. what should I do ? " (NOT SO YAY.) DAMN, THIS IS ALMOST THE ULTIMATE. Hello you, I hope you stop misleading me soon. I will die getting manipulated by you this way. I can't concentrate at work. I spend my hours worshipping every inch of your skin, even when you are eating fish soup with me. You are my only motivation to go to work now. See you in another 9 hours . And, straight or lesbian, you tell me soon.

This, is a classic " SO NEAR YET SO FAR LOR, NABEH (!) " case.

I hate the fact that I need to set aside $3000 for October. Or else I'd have gotten my Tommy Hilfiger cardigan already. I REGRET. But don't worry, because my parents taught me never to allow myself to live in regrets. So in order to have bad feelings/regrets, I'll get you some way ! By Wednesday latest, okay ? :) If I can't lay my hands on you by then, I will paste 3 pieces of 50 dollars note on my body instead. I wonder if they can keep me warm like you.

Hmmmmm.....